Oh, No, Mr. Bill!!
Read 1 Samuel Chapter 27
1Sa 27:1 But David thought to himself, “One of these days I will be destroyed by the hand of Saul. The best thing I can do is to escape to the land of the Philistines. Then Saul will give up searching for me anywhere in Israel, and I will slip out of his hand.” 2 So David and the six hundred men with him left and went over to Achish son of Maoch king of Gath. 3 David and his men settled in Gath with Achish. Each man had his family with him, and David had his two wives: Ahinoam of Jezreel and Abigail of Carmel, the widow of Nabal. 4 When Saul was told that David had fled to Gath, he no longer searched for him.
I find a measure of comfort when I see that some of the greatest Godly men in the bible had times of doubt. In this passage, David was on the run from Saul. Saul had desired to kill David multiple times, and acted on those desires at times. You and I know that God’s will was for David to succeed Saul as King. David knew that as well, for Samuel had anointed him at the time he was only a shepherd boy and as yet had not achieved any public acclaim. Yet, even after many assurances from God that he was the future king, he doubted.
Despite his God-given knowledge about his future, David thought to himself, “One of these days I will be destroyed by the hand of Saul.” How could someone so close to the Lord have these kinds of doubts? It is possible that David’s doubts were planted in his mind by the Lord, but that’s not likely. One of the evidences of our fallen human nature is the presence of doubt. It began with Eve’s doubts about God’s word about the Tree of Life. From the first moment of the Fall, man has been a fearful doubter, unsure of the stability of life.
Well, that’s me. I have been plagued by doubts for pretty much my whole life. My battles with SSA have often been overshadowed by my battles with doubt. I have at times dealt with doubts about God’s love for me, His willingness to forgive me, my salvation, His promises to watch over me and my family – the list goes on and on. It seems like that when I conquer one doubt another one pops up in its place. As I write this, my doubts and fears have ventured into the area of family concerns. Will the Lord work out a certain problem in such a way that will be to my liking, or will He allow some difficulties to take place as a way of teaching certain members of my family some tough lessons? Sometimes, I don’t like the way God does things.
My more serious doubts though, were those first ones that I mentioned. Those doubts were in regard to the faithfulness of our Lord, and doubts concerning the promises in His word. Those kinds of doubts are more similar to David’s doubts in this scripture passage, or maybe a little worse. After that long introduction, we can get into the meat of today’s topic.
How does God handle our doubts? How did He deal with David’s doubts in this passage? If is phased or troubled the Lord in any way, there is no record of it. God simply continued to work out His plan for David and the nation. I think it is a good thing that the Lord doesn’t just throw us away when we entertain doubt about His watch-care over us. As I look back over many of my past doubts, God would certainly have been justified to give up on me and turn His attention to someone else. But He didn’t.
He didn’t come in and do something to alleviate my fears. He allowed me to wallow in them for quite a while before helping me work my way through them. To put it another way, what He did was remarkable. He simply ignored my fears and merrily continued to work out His will and purpose for my life. It was as though He didn’t even see my lack of trust in Him. I can almost visualize Him acting like an earthly parent – “Oh, there goes my son again, worrying over things that I have got covered. I’m just going to let him stew, while I work out his problem.” That seems to be God’s attitude in the example of David.
Our main point is this – God’s promises are true. They are true whether we choose to rely upon them or not. Our fears that He won’t forgive us of our same-sex sins are senseless. He has never rejected the repentant man or woman, even in the area of same-sex sins. He will not desert us when we experience a failure along the way. His love for us stands firm even when we doubt. He is working out His will in our lives, even when we don’t think so. What a marvelous Lord and Savior!
Prayer: I sure wish we could see the end result of Your faithfulness to us. It would save us a lot of worry, anxiety, grief, and doubts. Thank You for being patient and kind, willing to continue You work in our lives, even when we doubt.