Just Do As I Say
Read Acts Chapter 22
Ac 22:19 “ ‘Lord,’ I replied, ‘these men know that I went from one synagogue to another to imprison and beat those who believe in You. 20 And when the blood of Your martyr Stephen was shed, I stood there giving my approval and guarding the clothes of those who were killing him.’ 21 “Then the Lord said to me, ‘Go; I will send you far away to the Gentiles.’ ”
I have heard some SSA men say, “I’m not worthy to be of any service to God. The things I have done in the past are just too terrible. People know who I am and what I have done. No one will listen to me. Also, I am too ashamed of my past. I am an unfit vessel,” (or words to that effect.). I can understand that. I’ve had the same kinds of thoughts. “I know the evil I have done. How can God ever use me?”
In this passage, Paul was having the same thought processes. He had persecuted Christians and even had approved of the murder of Stephen. When God began to show him what he must do for Christ and His message, he hesitated. “I went from synagogue to another to imprison and beat those who believe in You.” “I’m a terrible person. No one is going to listen to someone like me.”
Notice how God responded to Paul’s declaration of his unworthiness. God said, “Go!” I love the fact that God did not even respond to Paul’s reasoning. He could have given Paul words of encouragement, told him how forgiven he was, or at least given him some word of comfort to assure him that all was well. He didn’t. He just said “Go!” Paul’s hesitancy wasn’t worthy of a formal response from the Lord. When God gives a man an assignment, there’s not much use in complaining, arguing, or even presenting a case of one’s unworthiness. If God tells a man to do something , all arguments against such a calling are useless. If God has prepared the way, all obstacles have been removed from the pathway.
If you are considering yourself unworthy of being of service for our Lord, forget it. God gives personal assignments to all of His children, including those who have SSA backgrounds. No matter what we have done, or how many people know of our weaknesses, God has cleared the way for us to be of service to Him. I don’t know what He has in store for you, and maybe you don’t either. But make no mistake about it. He will someday reveal an assignment which is exclusively for you. There’s nothing in your past which should or can prevent your carrying it out.
It is okay to be humble, and realize that you are unworthy. Every man and woman is unworthy, not just the SSA man and woman. But our unworthiness has been overcome and trumped by Christ’s righteousness. As we go about our assigned duties, we go with the righteousness of Christ, not our own righteousness. Wow! That’s awesome!
Prayer: I sit here marveling over the fact that You are using me in any way. I truly don’t understand how You can be so merciful and forgiving. For sure, I am not worthy of doing anything that has a positive influence on eternity, or for giving comfort to Your children. But I surely do thank You for giving me a righteousness which I could never have achieved or earned. I pray that all SSA men and women will put aside their feelings of unworthiness, and just “Go!”