I Just Want To Die!
Read John Chapter 11
Jn 11:7 Then He said to His disciples, “Let us go back to Judea.” 8 “But Rabbi,” they said, “a short while ago the Jews tried to stone You, and yet You are going back there?”
Jn 11:16 Then Thomas (called Didymus) said to the rest of the disciples, “Let us also go, that we may die with Him.”
Verse 16 is a simple verse, but has a huge lesson for us. When the disciples heard Jesus say, “Let us go back to Judea,” they were dismayed. They questioned the wisdom of going to a place where people wanted to kill Him. As usual, they had no understanding that the plan all along was that He was destined to die in Jerusalem. But that’s beside the point. Thomas decided that he would rather die with Christ rather than consider any other options. He made a very important decision. He would rather NOT live than to live without Christ.
Isn’t that the choice which mankind must make at some time in his life? Isn’t that the choice we have made by attempting to abandon our SSA? What mankind doesn’t realize is that to choose not to die in Christ is really to die without Him. To die without Christ is the worst possible decision that any man can make. The sad part is that most men will not realize the dire consequences of their decision until the pass away and are face to face with God. No choose not to die with Jesus is to choose to die in the worst way possible. Our enemy leads men to believe that they can live only if they choose to not die with Christ.
As we continue to battle same-sex desires, this passage should give us reason to rejoice. We have chosen to follow Christ in death rather than to die without Christ. Our choice to follow Jesus actually has given us life, when death had its cold grip upon us. Our association with Christ has not taken life away from us. For, Jesus was resurrected, the first born among many. That means that as we follow Him in death, we too will be resurrected. Only those who follow Him in death will truly find life. If we had decided to find our life, we would have lost it.
Mt 10:39 Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.
Jn 11:25 Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me will live, even though he dies; 26 and whoever lives and believes in Me will never die. Do you believe this?”
Jn 12:23 Jesus replied, “The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. 24 I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. 25 The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. 26 Whoever serves Me must follow Me; and where I am, My servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves Me.
The truth is that living and dying for Christ is the only reason for living. To live without Him means that life has no purpose. Perhaps we should reconsider our propensity to moan and groan over the difficulties we face in our battle with SSA. Our pathway is one of eternal joy and peace. We will be alive forever, in Heaven, with Jesus and thousands and thousands of our brothers and sisters in Christ. Let’s die.
Prayer: Father, this is so hard to remember when we are weary of our struggle. Help us keep these thoughts at the forefront of our minds, especially when we are vulnerable and weak.